Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Epiphanies...

1. I remember I had a good friend give me a massage and it hurt like you wouldn't believe. I was having back pain due to being hunched over my desk and computer for several semesters. My muscles were screaming at me before I did anything about it. As I was gasping through the pain as she worked out the knots and kinks in my muscles, she told me that we feel pain for a reason. I remember during my health issues I felt like no one truly understood how I felt and the physical pain that I felt on a daily basis. I was thinking today that the same applies to emotional pain. I have been fairly good at ignoring emotional pain and scarring. Sometimes being strong is actually detrimental to your own emotional well being. We feel pain because something is not right. We feel pain because our body -our heart and soul - is trying to tell us something is not right. If we ignore that in the name of "strength" what are we actually doing to ourselves? I've gotten pretty good at ignoring pain...maybe it's time I stopped.

2. Circumstances and people are not put into our lives haphazardly. Events don't always turn out the way we wish or hope - rarely so, in fact. But it's almost always for a reason and it's important for us to understand what those reasons are and why we needed to experience that. We'll be stronger and more resilient for it.

3. Sometimes anger is a healthy emotion. We just need to be sure it doesn't rule our every thought and action.

4. I woke up this morning after a fitful sleep and I thought to myself, you're going to be alright. Somehow, that was very reassuring. I feel more in control of my life and what my future holds than ever before. I will not be acted upon. My future is mind to create.

5. Roommates and sisters are the best...seriously.



2 comments:

Lauren said...

I totally agree. Pain is often something else communicating to us that things aren't right, whether our pain be spiritual, emotional, physical... We don't get stronger by choosing to be, we get stronger by acknowledging our pains and handling them wisely. Love this post!

Al Christensen said...

Sorry, but a lot of things in life really are random. A lot of things we collide with really aren't about us. We can drive ourselves crazy trying to figure out the purpose, what it means to us, what it has to do with some grand plan. Paradoxically, things make much more sense when we stop trying to make sense of everything. "Oh, I see, things just happen and most of it isn't about me at all."

Once I was walking my old, blind dog in the woods. The dog was following a scent trail, I was following the dog to keep him out of trouble. As I was walking along, I happened to look down just as I steppend on a line of ants. Now, if ants thought about such things, they might have been trying to find the purpose of what just happened. Why did the big thing crush some of their colony? Why were some killed and some spared? What had they done wrong? What were they supposed to do? Sorry, little ants, it was just bad luck.